i have tears in my eyes........ that's all i can say right now...
Karin's Korner
· 3 years ago
WOW
Fluffycat
· 3 years ago
that is quite a memory. it was disturbing but it made me think a lot.
Steven Novak
· 3 years ago
I've really got nothing to say about this one.
Wow.
Steve~
the big one
· 3 years ago
I'm sitting here reading your final words, remembering all those special times when I've held my own sons close. Beyond that, all I know is that your friend was so lucky to have you there with her.
Ted
· 3 years ago
Yes.
A hearteat may be the music of life.
I think compassion and caring are the soul of heartbeats. Thank God that music still plays.
I'm going to give my children an extra squeeze tonight.
Justmee
· 3 years ago
I read this story this morning. I cried for 10 minutes. Couldn't even comment.
Your words and story/experiences are so powerful. Just think how many "lifes" you might have saved today just with this one story. MissU, you are an amazing person. :)
Cherrie
· 3 years ago
You did do this story justice, Elaine.
The scene you describe is so touching I don't know how anyone can read your words without feeling the tears well up.
We make light of sex because it is such a pleasureable activity, but the consequences of not taking the proper precautions can be devastating, if not deadly.
Suze
· 3 years ago
Elaine, this one touched me deeply.
Kristen
· 3 years ago
Oh, I'm speechless.
You were a wonderful friend.
rn_buffoon
· 3 years ago
You said you don't think you made the right decision in burying the baby- Miss; I think it was a beautiful thing you did for that little scrap of life...
What an amazing yet tragic story. I can't imagine what you felt when you looked down and saw it in your hand. Your friend was lucky you were there.
I've got tears too.
erika
· 3 years ago
Oh my gosh. How sad for both of you.
Richard
· 3 years ago
What a sad story. It shows how delicate life really is.
Shelly Rayedeane
· 3 years ago
My God. Do you always write passionately like this? This is such a sad story, but it really touched my heart.
I'm speechless. I don't know what to say.
Green Eyes
· 3 years ago
I love you, Miss.
RobynB
· 3 years ago
Lanie~
You did the right thing. The right thing by your friend and the right thing by the sweet little baby. How simply tragic.
I can't imagine how you must of felt, or still feel about the whole situation.
You're an incredibly brave and strong woman.
Hugs and love to you my sweet friend.
xo
Miss Understood
· 3 years ago
Blessed - Here, have a tissue. Sometimes there are no words... x
Karin - That's kind of how I felt.
Fluffycat - I can't stop thinking...
Steven - Shut you up, huh? x
the big one - I'm glad she wasn't alone. But I think I just did want any friend would have done. x
Ted - You squeeze them and then squeeze them some more.
justmee - Oh God. that is a really incredibly powerful thing to say. I didn't think for one second that what I wrote could affect somebody's decision...and it really wasn't my intention to try to do that. But I suppose words are capable of doing that, aren't they? I feel quite moved that perhaps somebody may find faith or strength or hope from reading this. I just hope to God I didn't make anyone feel guilt. I really don't want that - I'd hate for someone to feel like that.
Cherrie - Thank you. Yes - they can be deadly indeed. Amazing words, as always. x
Suze - Hugs x
Kristen - Thank you. x
rn_buffoon - I can see it as clear as day, even now. It's a memory that will always stay with me.
Erika - Very, very sad. x
Richard - It does...
Shelly - You made me smile! Thank you for that. If you read my archives, you'll say that most of the time I waffle on about a whole load of nonsense. Occasionally I'll write something which people say they are moved by, but I think this is the biggest response I've had which suggests I touched a few people with my words. It's bitter-sweet really. Thank you for commenting.
GE - Love you too, Mommy. x
Robyn - It's hard to say how I feel. A huge mix of emotions which I don't have words for. You hug your girls extra tight tonight sweetie. xx
thru my eyes
· 3 years ago
OH LANEY, You know how I feel about this one. I am typing this with tears running down my cheeks. You are to most caring, loving and wonderful woman on earth and I can't tell you how lucky your friend and her infant were that you were there for both of them that night. I am sorry you have to live with the heartbreak of that memory but I am so happy it was you and not someone else there that night. Sending you hugs and my deepest respect. xo TME
Kitty
· 3 years ago
Miss I think you did the right thing. I feel sad because you still after 17 years have so many mixed emotions including guilt.
My fine lady, YOU were incredible. YOU did the right thing. YOU did what GOD wanted, be at peace with yourself and let yourself heal.
I'm sending warm loving hugs your way.
Miss Understood
· 3 years ago
TME - Oh, I know how you're feeling. This was such a hard one to write, but I'm so glad now that I did it. I'm glad I took the time to get it out...on paper. I need a long, long chat with you sweetie. very soon. xxx
Kitty - Thanks so much for commenting . I'm just sad that your first visit was on such a sad entry! I knew I did all I could that night...what I feel awful about is the bloody matchbox, of all things. For some reason I wanted to do more...thought the baby deserved more. It was a tough, long night, and it was such a powerful thing, to be holding (what could have been) a life in the palm of my hand. It's beyond words. x Kitty, could you email me please? My address is on my profile page. I want to tell you something, but not here, and I don't have your address. x
Dan - Thanks for that. It means a lot - especially from one of the most amazing writers out here. x
Ali
· 3 years ago
Elaine ~ I did actually read this one at lunch time at work yesterday. I was so moved, and so close to tears I couldn't comment. Very powerful and extremely compassionate, its what we all love about you, only sorry you and your friend had to go through that experience. Big Hugs. x
Dan
· 3 years ago
Laney, that's one of the sweetest things anyone has ever said to me in the blogosphere. Thanks so much.
Miss Understood
· 3 years ago
Ali - Thanks for the hugs. I never expected it to touch so many people in the way that it has. I'm really glad I wrote it now. x
Dan - My pleasure. And I mean it...you're amazing. x
Janet M. Kincaid
· 3 years ago
Wow! If I haven't said it before, I'm saying I'm now: you are an amazing writer with absolutely riveting stories.
I can't even begin to fathom how you made it through that night. Your strength and fortitude is admirable.
As for the matchbox, everyone deserves a dignified resting place and you gave that to this baby. Others might not have been so thoughtful and generous.
Miss Understood
· 3 years ago
Janet - It just seems so...lame? I dunno. Poor use of word. I know (in reality), that so many babies end up in buckets. I know, in reality, that you can't get a 2 inch long coffin and have a service. And if this baby deserved it, why the hell didn't all the others?
I guess what it boils down to, is just that - the stark reality of it all. I could eat a roast pork dinner quite easily, but take me to a farm and ask me to kill a pig, I know I'd be having a vegetarian lunch. I think, what I mean to say, is that I'm a hypocrite. And that doesn't sit too well with me.
All Comments
that's all i can say right now...
Wow.
Steve~
A hearteat may be the music of life.
I think compassion and caring are the soul of heartbeats. Thank God that music still plays.
I'm going to give my children an extra squeeze tonight.
Your words and story/experiences are so powerful. Just think how many "lifes" you might have saved today just with this one story. MissU, you are an amazing person. :)
The scene you describe is so touching I don't know how anyone can read your words without feeling the tears well up.
We make light of sex because it is such a pleasureable activity, but the consequences of not taking the proper precautions can be devastating, if not deadly.
You were a wonderful friend.
What an amazing yet tragic story. I can't imagine what you felt when you looked down and saw it in your hand. Your friend was lucky you were there.
I've got tears too.
I'm speechless. I don't know what to say.
You did the right thing. The right thing by your friend and the right thing by the sweet little baby. How simply tragic.
I can't imagine how you must of felt, or still feel about the whole situation.
You're an incredibly brave and strong woman.
Hugs and love to you my sweet friend.
xo
Karin - That's kind of how I felt.
Fluffycat - I can't stop thinking...
Steven - Shut you up, huh? x
the big one - I'm glad she wasn't alone. But I think I just did want any friend would have done. x
Ted - You squeeze them and then squeeze them some more.
justmee - Oh God. that is a really incredibly powerful thing to say. I didn't think for one second that what I wrote could affect somebody's decision...and it really wasn't my intention to try to do that. But I suppose words are capable of doing that, aren't they? I feel quite moved that perhaps somebody may find faith or strength or hope from reading this. I just hope to God I didn't make anyone feel guilt. I really don't want that - I'd hate for someone to feel like that.
Cherrie - Thank you. Yes - they can be deadly indeed. Amazing words, as always. x
Suze - Hugs x
Kristen - Thank you. x
rn_buffoon - I can see it as clear as day, even now. It's a memory that will always stay with me.
Erika - Very, very sad. x
Richard - It does...
Shelly - You made me smile! Thank you for that. If you read my archives, you'll say that most of the time I waffle on about a whole load of nonsense. Occasionally I'll write something which people say they are moved by, but I think this is the biggest response I've had which suggests I touched a few people with my words. It's bitter-sweet really. Thank you for commenting.
GE - Love you too, Mommy. x
Robyn - It's hard to say how I feel. A huge mix of emotions which I don't have words for. You hug your girls extra tight tonight sweetie. xx
Sending you hugs and my deepest respect.
xo
TME
My fine lady, YOU were incredible. YOU did the right thing. YOU did what GOD wanted, be at peace with yourself and let yourself heal.
I'm sending warm loving hugs your way.
I need a long, long chat with you sweetie. very soon. xxx
Kitty - Thanks so much for commenting . I'm just sad that your first visit was on such a sad entry! I knew I did all I could that night...what I feel awful about is the bloody matchbox, of all things. For some reason I wanted to do more...thought the baby deserved more. It was a tough, long night, and it was such a powerful thing, to be holding (what could have been) a life in the palm of my hand. It's beyond words. x Kitty, could you email me please? My address is on my profile page. I want to tell you something, but not here, and I don't have your address. x
Dan - Thanks for that. It means a lot - especially from one of the most amazing writers out here. x
Big Hugs. x
Dan - My pleasure. And I mean it...you're amazing. x
I can't even begin to fathom how you made it through that night. Your strength and fortitude is admirable.
As for the matchbox, everyone deserves a dignified resting place and you gave that to this baby. Others might not have been so thoughtful and generous.
I guess what it boils down to, is just that - the stark reality of it all. I could eat a roast pork dinner quite easily, but take me to a farm and ask me to kill a pig, I know I'd be having a vegetarian lunch. I think, what I mean to say, is that I'm a hypocrite. And that doesn't sit too well with me.